Well this may seem a random post... but I'm in need of some kind of release right now. I've been fighting blood sugar issues for a long time now. Then last year a new battle of health. Battles up and down . I'm now fighting a new battle added to those . I guess maybe just the emotions of it have caught up with me.
Tonight I sit here and all I can think about is one day seeing my boy's grown , and me wondering what time my grand kids will be coming over for the weekend. Tears .... the river can't hold them. I enjoy the simple things in life . I like bonfires with the boys , roasting hot dogs, family gatherings, 4 wheeling with my family. I love trips and shopping ... all the girly stuff. But my heart is taken by two boys who call me Momma. I know many people fight battles of health. I understand that I am not the only one who is dealing with some serious struggles. I feel like its a constant roller coaster. You either choose to fight and never stop , or give up. Giving up is not an option ! I guess my heart is just really heavy tonight. Sometimes you just have to release to be able to get up in the morning , and do it all over again.